i just want to share a simple story that i’ve just been through few days ago.. the time had pointed 5 o’clock in the evening, just right in time for all the workers outside there to go home, yeah their lovely place.. i was still waiting for the bus to come, or running for the bus exactly, because i saw that bus had been so far all the way , and ready to depart soon..

i got the bus and quickly jumped into to get at least a place to sit.. the first time, i didn’t find a seat actually, but found one at last at the very back seat of the bus.. the bus was ready to launch and the situation inside it was getting more and more crowded,, i finally relieved that i had found a lively spot there, got my earphone out, and ready to go..

but there was something that came to me, to my mind.. there was a fight, a real fight in my heart because there were an old man in his late 60’s i thought and young mother with her 6 year old son didn’t have their time to catch the bus earlier so they couldn’t find any seat left..

it took me some time to think just to make decision either giving the old man my set or pretending that i didn’t know anything at all, which is very pathetic and shameful.. yeah, i admitted for that time i was a pathetic one as one of young man had stood up for giving an old man his seat,, and it didn’t took so long for another brave young man giving his to the young mother..

i thought that i was left alone in the bunch of loser, weak young men, an apathetic one, oh so disgraceful.. i couldn’t defeat bad side of my mind which felt that i had deserved this seat because i had run and jumped for it..

i didn’t enjoy hearing my ipod like i used to be, mumbling along with my ‘going home theme’ song, latest album from SORE.. i was wondering their song ‘Apatis Ria’ but in so different ways.. the two young men there might not be remember about what they had done but in the other side, this will be such a bad memory and a great lesson for me instead..

i recently agreed with a great friend that once said that my empathy level was not good enough, and i realized that might be true.. you can get lessons anywhere from anyone, so i will take it as a lesson and hope after that day, there’s something i can hold onto.

a person is still a human who has bad side of mind, but the good one can control it,

and a brave man could admit his mistake and devote himself not to repeat it, at last be a better person.

cheeriio!